Series of Unfortunate Events

Saturday January 21, 2012
11:11 pm
Alumni Hall

I am probably going to post this Sunday because I just wanted to post some pictures that I have taken its not much but its really hard to take pictures of daily life here because you become some amalgamated with life that taking pictures around makes you feel like some kind of tourist, so I don't have too much pictures but I promise to try to take more, I usually enjoy looking back at pictures that I have taken around the Island. But first for laughs I am going to post the worst picture, well one of the worst picture that I have ever taken, I promise it happened by accident, I guess accident makes the best pictures so I wanted to share the laugh and the horror. 

how hideous lol 

the view from my bed, I had to semi sleep on those benches well semi sleep
because I had to watch my luggage,. 

 So its been a week so far, arrived in Grenada on Monday and oh my gosh worst trip ever well second worst trip ever the first trip to Grenada was my worst flying experience EVERRRR!!! I think there is a place in brain that tries to forget those misreable 3 days lol. Its okay any way, I think it will be better lots of people have worst experience than I, at least I didn't lose my luggages so Thank You Jesus I am here, because if I did I could have put a curse on that airplane lol, just kididng, I will just call my mum and cry my eyes out. 

beach yoga, I am on a Island but I am keeping my yoga
in my bedroom

Coming back to Grenada you know I really don't believe so much in bad luck, I just think its just a series of unfortunate events or just a co in ki dink, well lots of co in ki dinks have been happening to me all week, and almost everything I try to do, I have "bad luck" I am like can anything work right. Well some things are just a few but everything else, honestly I really think this my "bad luck" might be contagious so watch out for me lol. So maybe by next MONTH I will be officially settled lol and hopefully if anything goes wrong it will be little things. Feelings, how do I feel to be back, it feels alot different from last semester, have not met much new people, it feels calmer, and I feel the change is sought of fitting. It feels more like school and everything else instead of school with everything else. I am even going to pick up doing yoga this semester again. I remember when I use to wake up in the morning to do yoga and I did afternoon yoga those where the times. When you have a center of inner peace anything is possible. 


O h and I got my stuff from storage and mold everywhere, everywhere, all my clothes smell like mold and there is mold residue and some stuff, this school all the money we pay they need to clean that storage and they were bugs on all over the boxes its like not nice. I think those bugs escaped all over my room, they are so small I don't see them all the time but I know they are there. Here are just some few examples of extent of the mold 

yep, all my stored shoes have mold this bad on them

all my jeans have obvious mold stains on them and a couple of other
clothes

yep moldy indeed

So never will I store my stuff in the school's storage facility unless they clean out that stuff, I know its like "free" I mean how free can it be, its probably coming from our tuition but mold is not good for your health and my health is more important than shoving a couple of ec dollars to have my stuff stored in a non moldy place but we will see. I really hope they do because my skin had an instant reaction to the mold luckily not that intense but it could be worst for some 


And then there is the beast called the valentines day fundraiser, I thought about it last year, it is really simple and I thought it would be exciting to facilitate something like this. The fundraiser is pretty much selling flower grams and delivering it in classes on the v-day. I go hot and cold with it but I am still making progress to make it happen. Its just going to take alot of cooperation and it seems like its going be like ahh but I don't know we will see if it happens. It might go well, go alright or go horribly or not at all. Its hard to plan stuff when its like the first time its being implemented, there is this pioneer in me that's is like I really want to accomplish this, I really want to just like have this idea, implement it and hope its successful but any kind of success will be good. There is something great feeling about having an idea and seeing it implemented whether you are the one that implements it or just sit back and watch. 


School is going okay. I had almost registeration delimma, I was like please no more wahala (trouble). Kathy I believe is her name, in the registertation office, people like that is what makes this world awesome, she was so helpful and assuring, like I love her. lol. Things like this like school administrative stuff they can make you run around like crazy but she really helped me out. I thank God for people like her in sea of displeasuring people. lol. 
What am I looking forward too, well just studying really lame but the more I feel myself with info the happier I will be, I am going to be a professional of public health soon lol, I want to be like ontop of whatever I am suppose to know, Fish friday we are going to take a boat trip on the beautiful ocean to like a fish market. But one negative is my hair is out of control but I just didn't want to spend anytime with it but its turning to some jumbo afro that needs to be tamed but whatever this is why I like braids. 


Its Wednesday now and I was going to post this on Sunday but you know no time but my internet problems I cleared out in my dorm room. I no longer have to go to any study halls or library, yeaaa but next they need to give me a new study table though. I still don't feel completely settled I still have to get some of my stuff from a friends place. My sweet comforter but I thank my friend who lend me her blanket, that blanket has been like a Blessing from God. I could have been feehrezzing because a lot of my stuff were in storage. 


The gym, working out ahhh I am feeling so ahh. Well I wanted to workout just for working out sake but now that I checked my weight I am like woahh, I don't like the pressure of losing pounds but its been really hard for me to maintain a steady weight for long it seems as years go by it gets more bigger and I am not like oh my gosh i am a fattyy fat fat all the time maybe sometimes but I just want to have control of my weight just maintain thats all. You know if I had huge hips I won't even workout, I will just count my Blessings lol. I am crazy I want huge hips and thats something working out can't give you lol.  But I am so grateful one of my friend is going to be my personal trainer and she is going to help me get in shape we already did a work out already and I found out that we share a common medical condition, I was like I love you right now, like I thought I was crazy for having this symptoms but yeah on that she is awesome. It felt nice working out, even though the gym smelt like ten milllion wrestlers armpits. I am not looking forward to watching what I eat. I think I will eat the same I will just cut down on coke, chocolate and late night snackage and more water. I am not DIE-ting. Anytime I think of the word i immediately want to eat a huge batch of french fries lol.


To end everything here are some pics from a friends Bday, it was so sweet and at my favourite restaurant in grenada thus far, Umbrellas 

Well till next, I am proud of myself that I am actually posting a blog as I am in Grenada, since it never worked out last time. So maybe this means I will be able to keep it up but I need to take some more pictures. So much picturable moments this past week but ehh 

Later!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, 14 January 2012
8:53 A. M. 
 Texas, USA


Right now I am in the middle of hurriedly packing because I am leaving for the airport soon, I have packed but I am just double checking and taking stuff out and annoying stuff like that.  Well I suppose I am not that much in a hurry since I am writing on this blog. There a couple of things I need to get before I leave just rechargeable batter charger etc. Still all this packing makes me wish I had one more extra day or one more extra week lol. I didn't get my new glasses prescription yet and neither did I get my prescribed drugs, even though I get the drugs I sure won't be taking them, drugs are gross, even the vitamin C tablet is gross lol. but I feel bad because I haven't said goodbye or tell people I am leaving back, or told some people I actually came back to U.S. I didn't get to hang out with some people I wanted. I remember coming back from grenada and saying I am going to do all these things and I ended up doing nothing, like 1% of all the things I planned, I kept falling ill every week and its only till now I feel better. What a coincidence, now that I am leaving, I was even breaking out some but now its cleared, so maybe my body doesn't like to stay in Texas anymore. But I hope next time I come back it will be better.  I read my  the blog I posted before this one  and I didn't like it, I am not good at using metaphors and explaining stuff and I don't think I am comfortable writting about my feelings lol, yes I do feel sometimes but I honestly don't think alot lol, like, there is no air in my head, but I don't go around holding on to certain feelings, or thoughts. Feelings change like lindsay lohan hair colour lol so its no need to dwell on them. and I think when you write something it seems like you are like thinking about things all the time lol because its like (valley girl) so one dimensional. Anywho I am going back to bringing my luggage downstairs, I suppose next time I will be in Trindad and tonight I will be in Grenada. ahh Grenada I can't wait for the heat, It is cold up in Texas right now. I am so excited to see some familiar faces. Lots of hugs to go around and catch up with people. So I am looking forward for that. Also Sunday is the bazaar ( its  for new students and old too if they want to join school clubs, you set up tables outside and have sign up sheet, like a club fair kind of thing). So I am going to have to get to work, no time for rest but its so cool like last semester I was on the other side looking around for clubs now I am going to be like on the other side, like talking to people about the club. Well I didn't get my hair done so my hair looks crazy and I have to fix it every time, so I am going to go do that right now. I am getting my hair done immediately when I get back to grenada. I already have an appointment lol. Its actually cheaper for me to do it there and its not that bad. It would have seem more convenient to do it here in America but I am practically living in Grenada so I am like comfortable using any kind of services, its like an extension of home that doesn't have a great mall close by lol but still home. I have been in point of view fortunate, well some people call it unfortunate because they might not like moving around but moving around has made me comfortable with moving, so I think home is like everywhere I suppose but there is one main home which is the home home home which is where your parents live so thats always like the main home but like there are many homes. lol. I think I will go now. haa

New Year, New Me???

With all these things I have said I LOVE GRENADA by the way and I am just complaining about myself because I am still growing and learning more about myself so every experience lends its hand it that.  


Well I decided to give this blog thing another try. I remember being so excited about Grenada and I said that I was going to keep a blog about the new journey and everything and I FAILED at that lol but now I am hoping this new year magic will help me. But difference for me when I first came to Grenada it felt more unknown to me and now that even I have been there not so long but long enough to realize how I mix with the place, with school, my rights and my wrongs so I am going back feeling more experienced instead of like lets see what happens. I am like okay stay away from that, lol, do this, do that, and shut up. lol. 


Pretty much I am like I just want to finish school. Yes I am the person who loves new experiences and adventures and meeting new people, I still love all of those things yes but I would love these things more when I am done with school lol. I still treat grenada as an adventure because IT IS, schooling in an island but it is still SCHOOL and I never remember SCHOOL ever being a walk in the park. I have a few goals that I want to accomplish this semester outside of being awesome in school, the list has been dramatically reduced since coming home for winter break but my goals are just with a couple of organizations I am involved in, one of the is HSO, I feel like a part parent of the club and I would like to see what me and the other E-board members could do with it, I am really going to put alot of energy into the club. I am really BIG on Humanitarianism so I would like to see the club Humanitarianism Service Organization really flourish but other than that I don't care about anything else oh yeah definitely I would like to get more involve with GOD, I feel like with God I have not been living in the present with Him, I feel like I have been thinking too much and when you end up thinking you end up not growing or doing anything, so definitely want to have more devotions like re-commit to devotions again, like more alone time so it will keep me more present. I mean this having a great relationship with God is my number one thing ever, I am never happy when I don't feel like I am not where I should be with God like right now, its like I always know I could be better.  I would like to be part of a Bible Study in school, I hope there is time for that for my schedule because of our class time was so late but I hope I could get more involved. Also working out more, gonna stop saying I am allergic to working out. 


Yah pretty much New Year for me my resolution is to be just MATURE in every aspect of my life, I am not childish in my thinking but I would admit I am not consistent in being mature when it comes to other matters, like a mature person would always be ontop of their room, not have clean days and messy days and even messier days. A mature person does things on super on time and stuff like that. So I want to be more consistently mature in like you know I am 21 now, now I really have the badge of yeah I am in my twenties. I think there is a time when something clicks and it has clicked for me, I like to when people call me mam'm, I feel like woman lol not girl maybe when I am like 40, I will be like who you calling mam'm lol.  Its like something has to click you know, its like you go from a teenager playing adult sometimes and now I am like one, as you continue to grow in your twenties people expect more from you, well to be more put together I suppose.  I don't know when you are under this teenage cloud, its like maybe you are not thinking that I want people to see me as put together person you are just like whatever, personality personality personality but now that I am 21, I do still want to keep my personality yaaa but I want to be more refined, like Mary 2.0, still me but just  like twenties me. I am really going to try to keep a blog this semester, this year, like a weekly blog or bi-weekly with pictures and stuff because no one likes to read just words these days. Lets just say I have been disappointed by people, actually in one case I shouldn't be disappointed I am the one that was the villain in this case but still silly man lol. they are some people that have turned out to have disaappointed me due to just because it caught me by surprise but although I come off very light and fluffy and bleh, but there is a brain in this giant head of mine, like I am a very aware person lets just say at least when it comes to my faults.  So anyway I am not angry all, just cautious but any negative realization or experience usually comes with some kind of energy and this energy is not grave but there is an energy but (sorry I believe in energies) lol but this energy from this experience makes me want to direct it to my one problem of being nervous when I speak in large group when I am like oh yeah I am like I will show you, I will show you, its sad I am motivated by this but I need a little something crazy to  help me, its not that big of a deal, it just shows how not much drama I have in my life, that I am nibbling on tiny bits to get me pumped but I need it for my stage freight, ahhh, my silly stage freight why do I have it, okay I know why because as I said I am aware of my faults. One being I don't like my accent especially when I am nervous, I feel like I sound stupid lol and I don't like people looking at me lol, because honestly I don't like attention, and presentation is something that requires attention. Honestly I think I am psychotic because if I ever get married, I dread my wedding day because I don't like having attention. When I am walking down the aisle I am going to be like what you looking at lol, stop looking at me people and then run away lol.  maybe If I could present in a costume it will help, with a mask, or a mascot outfit but I have to get over it because I have lots of interest and I want to be able to public speak about my passion for like  the ending of fistula, and human rights, and women rights, and malaria and polar bears and stuff and stuff that I work hard and I am passionate about. I feel when I speak publicly about something I sell myself short letting my nervous energy get to me but I am hoping alot of this my I am going to show you energy will help me and plus this my whole wanting to be mature thing the spirit of it will guide me to help me lol. Okay well right now its thursday morning and I have started to pack. Although I am still stressed alot of bad things have happened to me in this short amount of time but its not as bad as the time I was packing to grenada I was running all over the place wasting money but now I know what I need to get and I am mostly worried about getting my hair done, I can't decide on a hairstyle.  I am leaving to Grenada Saturday and there I will put all these crap I have said to test. Wish me Luck. Till Next 

"espn" - less than two weeks to paradise

heyyyyy my first post under my new blog, this is my second blog, this being my second blog doesn't make me an experienced blogger by no means, my first blog I think I posted 3 blogs and their times were widely apart, I really thought I was going to keep up with it, it makes me nostalgic kind of, because when I go back and read my old posts I wish I wrote more, its always interesting to see what you were thinking previous moments ago, its like a sought of reflective look at oneself.

but one thing I dread writting blogs, or writting in general both informally and formally with blogs they are informal and with informal writting my problem is more with I have alot to say and it doesn't always read well or sound interesting, sounds like mindless chatter but maybe with formal writting i am able to withhold myself a bit from lashing out in mindless chatter and sentences that doesnt make sense. doesn't help that i am  incredibly lazy when it comes to typing wordy stuff too so in good news for me I got this speech recognition software called dragon, by the way I am not using at the moment but when I saw the commercial I was like excited about it because I thought of blogging and how I don't look forward to typing it and how I want to so much maintain a blog even if it kills me, making it is the easy part maintaining it is the annoying part but i am turning a new leafand i hope this dragon would help, unfortunately I tried installing it in my computer and my computer is acting jenky, "jenky" seems to be my new word, I seem to have been saying it alot lately or wanting to use it lol. so i am going to geek out on my computer and fix it later.

 Anyways before I go off a tangent, see this is why I prefer talking all these would seem so much lesser if I were to speak it rather than type, but switich topics I wanted the title of each of blog to be the music or sound or main thing thats around me and then maybe i could put a dash to specify what the blog is about, so espn being the title is because I am in my parents room and espn is whats on the tele, oh yeah baseball highlights soooo fun ( sarcasm) lol. Well this is the first post of the blog so it should be an introduction to what the blog is about, clear waters and silver dreams well clear waters because I am going to go study for my masters in public health in the eastern caribbean nation of Grenada on august 8 is when I leave, yep pretty soon from today and silver dreams is because I have a dream to work for WHO (World Health Organization), I want to do amazing work with public health, I am so very much passionate about this field and I am ready to serve and help so getting my masters in this beautiful country is the begining of my dreams. I really don't know what to expect I am going to a foreign country where no one speaks english, i am kidding they speak english, but for my undergrad  I didn't get it in public health so course wise I don't know what to expect so this blog is just to document my journey the good the bad and hopefully the gooder lol.  I am so glad I came up with this title, lol, it just came to me, I was going to call it girl meets caribbean, my epic caribbran adventures, maybe frenchy-fy the title to  mon aventure des caraibes blah blah blah but whats going on with me at the moment. 

 

Right now I am stressed out going mad lol, everyday I wake up saying you have less than two weeks left and in this less than two weeks left a lot of crap is happening, I got sick, we are going to have a lot of people staying at our house soon, my aunt and uncle are coming from Nigeria, I have this big Nigerian function thing to attend, my friends graduation party, church definetly church, spending time with friends and oh shopping and clean out the garage because my dad threatened to throw all my stuff before I got back from school. I can't even list all the things I have to do all I can say is right now I don't feel prepared, I can't imagine myself on that plane early in the morning august 8 with my bags I don't know how I am going to get there. There is just too much to be done and I haven't attacked anything major yet. I hope it gets better and this is the perfect time I am having car troubles, my oil is leaking so I am scared for the car to stop on the road if I drive it longer distance and I need to drive places men, so things are sucking real bad. Plus I feel I have not been giving a lot of time to God, I think about Him all the time I always do but I need to have Intense prayers and I need to study something, I am growing more and more as a Christian and I don't want to stop growing so I always need to challenge myself and I don't feel after camp I just came from, I have challenged myself enough yet, I have been getting caught up in stress and lazyiness, stress makes me lazy lol, when I get overly stressed out I just want to lie down and not think and waste time, I guess I don't feel in the right mood to get in my Word but I need to get it out of my head that I need to be in the right mood when I am just coming from a stressful or opposite place. In my overall life goal I would like to be a missionarist so I feel I always have to challenge myself spiritually to be prepared in faith as much as I can be and it all starts now the future begins now. 

 Tomorrow I need to get going and get some things done after this blog I am going to map out a plan for tomorrow, everything starts out with a car right and that I don't have at the moment, unfortunately and fortunately for me, my brother got sick today he has the same stomach flu thingy I have but I am much stronger when it comes to being sick, I have my moments of screaming in pain but I am a fighter, I don't take medicine so I have experienced some painful stuff that I never succomb to medicine to help alleviate it so I have a higher threshold for sick pains than my brother but he is suffering though, poor guy, I pray for him but fortunately for me I can drive his car tomorrow so I need to take advantage of it. Well I hope the next time I write another post, everything is all sorted out. But right now I am in texas not yet in clear waters and my dreams still feel far away but time is pushing us closer each second. I pray for guidiance and strenght. Sweet dreams and God Bless